Glass Heart

My mom once told me that when I was three this woman whispered to her, “Your daughter is an old soul, just like that painting on the wall. She’s going to be a healer and bring color to other peoples lives.”
My mom didn’t know what that meant at the time, but perhaps she was spiritual because now I’m twenty-two years old and this random woman that approached my mom couldn’t be more right about me.
I’ve spent years trying to heal other people,
That sometimes I forget to heal myself, take care of myself and appreciate myself as I do others.
I’ve spent years attempting to mend wounded hearts and broken souls in hopes to repair damage from unfortunate events in others’ lives that I couldn’t control.
As much as I wanted to fix it, there was nothing more I could do besides be a good friend.
For once glass breaks, you can try your best to glue the pieces back together but it will always be cracked.
You can’t fix something that is broken but you can try to put the pieces back together and fill the cracks with life lessons and hope that things will get better.
A shattered heart is stronger than one that has never been broken.
If you hold your head high enough and grow from tragedy, then the cracks will fade but they will still be there to remind you that you beat something you once didn’t think you could.
Our hearts are like glass.
We have these beautiful fragile organs that beat from the insides of our chest.
They can become easily fractured, yet they can also make our smiles glisten when things begin to go right.
Pretty wild isn’t it?
How glass can cut you like an axe taking down a helpless tree
but also act as a reflection of all that you’ve overcome.
Remember, our hearts aren’t shatter proof and without all those cracks from tragedy…how would the light seep in when the darkness starts to clear?

 

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You Are Enough

Below is a poem I wrote in high school. Read further down to see what I have learned since writing this. Accept yourself for all that you are…I promise that you are enough. 

I am a monster,

Maybe not the type that little kids think are under their bed,

Or the kind that does evil things,

But the kind that self-destructs.

I constantly beat myself up with negative thoughts,

The ones that leave you with a pounding headache,

And leave you in a puddle of your own self-weep,

The ones that keep you from sleeping at night.

I tell myself I am not good enough,

Torturing myself every chance I get,

Letting all the negative energy slip right into my skull,

Releasing all the good left in me.

 

What I’ve learned since writing this…

We all tend to be our own worst enemies. We are always concerned with what other people think of us because we assume that they are already judging us. More often than not, the only person judging you is yourself. And if other people are judging you than they are either jealous or are tearing you down to make them feel better about themselves because of their own insecurities…so in actuality, you should be feeling bad for those people. Those are the people who are the unhappiest with themselves. The people who put other people down to make themselves feel better have more issues than you and probably need some help of their own.

So in reality, it makes me laugh when I see someone judging another person because that person who is judging is trying to come off as the dominant, strong one when in fact they are nothing but weak. A strong person can be someone who has just as many insecurities but sees another person and admires their beauty, their confidence, and their talents. In my opinion, that is the definition of a strong person because even if they are not happy with themselves, they will not take down another person just to make him or herself feel better.

Instead, a strong person will praise someone else’s success and want to watch them keep learning, growing, and succeeding despite whatever is going on in their own life. Be that kind of person. And stop beating yourself up because your biggest enemy is you. You need to stop tearing yourself down and you need to start building yourself up. And for those of you tearing other people down to make yourself feel better, stop for a minute and think about how weak a move that really is.

Rather than tearing that person down, build that person up just like you would want someone to do for you. STOP being the monster you see in your head. START being the person you want to be. Don’t let other people get in your head. Don’t let the fear of what other people think of you ruin the perception of yourself. You’re better than that. Be the strong person I know you are.

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Disappointment

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Living in a generation where disappointment is much too common is a very unsettling thing.

The word disappointment creeps over us like dawn creeps on those who are unable to sleep at night.

It burns us from within, melting our insides.

There is no way to stop the fire from spreading as the flames feed hungrily on our minds and eat at our bones.

It’s that queasy feeling you get in your stomach after hearing that some boy was just using you to get a stupid favor.

It’s that moment when you realize who your true friends are.

What you once thought was a rainbow is now a cloud of dust as you see someone’s true colors begin to unfold.

It’s an anchor holding you down on the ocean floor, leaving you to drown and squabble for air as you realize you were the one to blame for your sorrow.

 

You have no control over disappointment because it is something that we do not expect.

We can disappoint ourselves just as well as anyone else can disappoint us. Whether we accidentally disappoint ourselves, or someone disappoints us, disappointment is a bitter feeling.

It happens suddenly and in a flash before you can even register the harm that has been done to your hopeless little body and mind.

 

Disappointment distorts us and makes us fear the unknown,

but the unknown is one of the most beautiful things in the world.

If only we could learn to see it that way.

The unknown is full of secrets, mystery, adventure, and yes, disappointment…

but that is what makes life worthwhile.

 

The unknown is our experiences that are yet to come.

Some may be good, some may be bad,

but that is the magic of the unknown.

We mustn’t fear the unknown.

Instead we must dive into it head on and be willing to take risks.

Because sometimes, disappointment simply arises from within by the lack of stepping out of our comfort zone and going after what we want.

You might try something and fail at it, which leaves you disappointed.

But if you do not try something you want to, then you are still left disappointed because you aren’t pursuing what you want.

Either way, you may be left disappointed so why not go after what you want?

 

Don’t be disappointed because you failed.

Instead, you should be disappointed only if you don’t try.

Failure is a part of learning and helps us to grow into stronger beings.

Don’t be afraid of it.

Chase after the unknown, embrace it, and simply learn from what is to come.

 

Disappointment is a part of life.

Sometimes the things we go through that leave us disappointed make us better people – more passionate, more caring. We may view things or people differently and change our ways for the better.

So, in fact, disappointment is a beautiful thing.
It is one of the few things that can help shape us into the people we are.

If we view it as a positive thing, we can only grow from the disappointment.

It’s about turning negative situations into positive situations.

It’s all about perspective, and I hope that you channel all the disappointment in your life into something beautiful.

A Sudden Emptiness

Below is a poem I wrote junior year of high school when I couldn’t put into words how I felt. We all feel a little lost and empty sometimes, and that is okay!! Poetry is sometimes how I express my emotions when I can’t quite explain the thoughts lingering in my mind. Metaphors, similes, alliteration, imagery, etc. are great ways to describe how you feel. I will be posting more of my poems on this blog (things I have written from middle school to things I am currently writing). After all, this blog is all about growth and joining me on my journey from a caterpillar to a butterfly!

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The transcendent sun is shining but my mind is a rumbling storm.

The sky is an impeccable blue but my eyes sting from the deluge of rain that engulfs my sweet flesh.

The vibrant birds are singing a sweet melody but all I hear is morose silence.

All sounds lost in the glum and bitter whistling wind.

The world becomes mute;

The hums of the birds barely reaching the open roads.

Loving Yourself

People say falling in love is hard these days. Our generation is so messed up, which leave us with low expectations and trust issues. But what I’ve come to realize is that the hardest thing to fall in love with is yourself.

We are all constantly trying to mold ourselves into this pretty picture that society has created but it’s unrealistic. We are all different and beautiful in our own ways. So why try to change that? Why should we allow people to set the standard for beauty, for success, for love, etc.? Beauty is different to everyone. Success is different to everyone. And love is different to everyone. So why does society make us think we have to have the same views on every single thing?

By allowing ourselves to conform to societies views and false expectations, we allow ourselves to become so small and we let the world take control of our lives. But we should be taking control of the world. We are in control of our own destinies, morals, and values. Therefore, we should not allow society, a person, or a bad experience change that for us. We all have a purpose on this planet so life is too short to focus on the petty things. We are extraordinary beings. We are capable of too much to allow ourselves to get lost in the armpit of societies false claims. We are so powerful and we don’t even realize it sometimes.

We can feel so many different things with our minds and with our bodies. It’s both a beautiful and ugly thing. It’s beautiful in the way that we feel love and warmth, and can reminisce on our adventures and great experiences. It’s ugly in the way that we can feel all of these things and that we can lose them just as easily with the spark of a negative thought. When love is good, it’s really good. And when a love is bad, it’s really bad. It can be good when you love something so much it becomes your career or in the way that you find your true love. It can be bad in the way that when a love for your job becomes your only love and takes over your life. It can also be bad if you become too dependent on someone you love who eventually leaves you heartbroken. Even reminiscing on great experiences and adventures can turn ugly if you are in a bad place and make yourself believe you will never be as happy as you once were.

We are such vulnerable human beings and that’s okay. But ultimately we are the only ones responsible for picking ourselves back up because we are the only ones that can control the thoughts in our mind and change the negative to a positive. This is why we must love ourselves. It’s the most important part of our existence. If we don’t love ourselves, how can we expect other people to love us? It is something we hear all the time but it is true. We need to drive our emotions and feelings no matter the situation.

“Perfect” is simply just a word that someone made up. No one is perfect but we can be our own kind of perfect. By this I mean we learn to truly understand and love ourselves. If you constantly think and strive for the best then you are being as perfect as you can be. By staying true to yourself and others, creating only room for positive thoughts and people in your life, and by falling in love with yourself –you have reached your highest point of your own perfect being. If you can do all of these things then congratulations- you are learning to fall in love with yourself and the world leaves with you endless opportunities at your feet! Jump on those opportunities, allow yourself to truly live in the moment and feel them. Stop thinking what if and DO IT. You never know unless you follow your heart. Stop living in fear of your own thoughts, society, and bad experiences. Instead, create new positive thoughts, new experiences, and create the kind of society you wish to see in your mind. It will be amazing when you see how many good, new things you can attract with a positive mindset.

Falling in love with yourself may not be easy and for many will take a lot of time. I’m still on my journey from caterpillar to butterfly. But I promise that once you do fall in love with yourself, it’ll be the most magical thing to happen to your existence. Because once you fall in love with yourself, you can do anything you put your mind to. Once you fall in love with yourself, you won’t care what other people think. Once you fall in love with yourself, you can take control of the world. But most importantly once you fall in love with yourself, you can take control of your own life. Once you do that, the world is truly your oyster.

Start the trend.

Speak your mind.

Spread the positivity.

And love yourself endlessly.

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Hello everyone, welcome to my blog!

This is my first post that will explain to you what my blog is all about!

Some background information about myself:

My name is Christina Bruno and I am currently a senior at Quinnipiac University. I am a public relations major and psychology minor. I have a radio talk show at school, am a part of the theater program, and Kappa Delta sorority.

Some of my passions include theater, fashion, makeup, traveling, and writing!

I love to meet new people, explore, and be spontaneous!