My Sweetest Symphony

Often nights I just lay in my bed,

As each of my thoughts becomes a beat,

Until eventually they all link together into an enthralling, soothing rhythm

And that’s when your name makes its way through my mind in the sweetest symphony,

So calm and tranquil,

As if you were whisking me through the breath of life;

The lullaby of the cool rain hushes me to sleep.

And that’s when I can hear your guitar playing from heavens pearly gates,

The rain comes down harder in a torrent,

And I can feel your presence kissing my skin with every drop.

Happy Valentines Day!

Happy Valentines day to all those love birds out there and to you fellow single ladies (hey girl I’m with you)!! The poem below has to do with being in love so I thought this was appropriate for today. Don’t be fooled though… I was thinking about a cheeseburger while writing this because I have never actually been in love. This is just what I always hoped, and imagined, being in love would feel like. I think a lot of girls wish to feel like this someday too. So single or not, I hope you enjoy this poem. xoxo. This picture of me devouring this cheeseburger was my inspiration. Poor quality but high quality meal. Scroll down to read the poem!

And its nights like these where I feel every piece of you,

Your warmth,

Soft touch,

Tender kisses,

And everything that we represent,

Whatever that may be.

I feel you under the starry, sapphire blue sky that sparkles above me, captivating, and enveloping all of me.

We are the twinkling stars that I see dancing,

Almost like ballerinas prancing through the wind,

Gracefully,

And ever so blissfully.

 

A small smile makes its way on my face,

And I pretend I am far, far away from reality.

I enter my dreams.

My dreams consist of a forever.

A forever with this magnificently bewitching sky,

And a forever with you.

 

P.S- Remember that the only love you NEED is unconditional love for yourself ❤

 

Disappointment

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Living in a generation where disappointment is much too common is a very unsettling thing.

The word disappointment creeps over us like dawn creeps on those who are unable to sleep at night.

It burns us from within, melting our insides.

There is no way to stop the fire from spreading as the flames feed hungrily on our minds and eat at our bones.

It’s that queasy feeling you get in your stomach after hearing that some boy was just using you to get a stupid favor.

It’s that moment when you realize who your true friends are.

What you once thought was a rainbow is now a cloud of dust as you see someone’s true colors begin to unfold.

It’s an anchor holding you down on the ocean floor, leaving you to drown and squabble for air as you realize you were the one to blame for your sorrow.

 

You have no control over disappointment because it is something that we do not expect.

We can disappoint ourselves just as well as anyone else can disappoint us. Whether we accidentally disappoint ourselves, or someone disappoints us, disappointment is a bitter feeling.

It happens suddenly and in a flash before you can even register the harm that has been done to your hopeless little body and mind.

 

Disappointment distorts us and makes us fear the unknown,

but the unknown is one of the most beautiful things in the world.

If only we could learn to see it that way.

The unknown is full of secrets, mystery, adventure, and yes, disappointment…

but that is what makes life worthwhile.

 

The unknown is our experiences that are yet to come.

Some may be good, some may be bad,

but that is the magic of the unknown.

We mustn’t fear the unknown.

Instead we must dive into it head on and be willing to take risks.

Because sometimes, disappointment simply arises from within by the lack of stepping out of our comfort zone and going after what we want.

You might try something and fail at it, which leaves you disappointed.

But if you do not try something you want to, then you are still left disappointed because you aren’t pursuing what you want.

Either way, you may be left disappointed so why not go after what you want?

 

Don’t be disappointed because you failed.

Instead, you should be disappointed only if you don’t try.

Failure is a part of learning and helps us to grow into stronger beings.

Don’t be afraid of it.

Chase after the unknown, embrace it, and simply learn from what is to come.

 

Disappointment is a part of life.

Sometimes the things we go through that leave us disappointed make us better people – more passionate, more caring. We may view things or people differently and change our ways for the better.

So, in fact, disappointment is a beautiful thing.
It is one of the few things that can help shape us into the people we are.

If we view it as a positive thing, we can only grow from the disappointment.

It’s about turning negative situations into positive situations.

It’s all about perspective, and I hope that you channel all the disappointment in your life into something beautiful.

Firestorm

This poem is for anyone who has ever felt blind-sided by someone that they cared for or loved…

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You came into my life like a firestorm,

Something dangerous yet so compelling.

I knew that if I got too close I might get burned,

But there was also the chance that getting too close could ignite a spark, even fireworks perhaps

And so I took the risk, which left me with a wounded heart.

For you were a fire,

And your flames danced on my skin as if it were a stage,

And you put on quite the show.

You’ve filled my lungs with smoke from all your games,

And now I am left charred and scorching in pain.

You extinguished me from your life to create fireworks with someone else

And now all I am left with is nothing but ash.

A Sudden Emptiness

Below is a poem I wrote junior year of high school when I couldn’t put into words how I felt. We all feel a little lost and empty sometimes, and that is okay!! Poetry is sometimes how I express my emotions when I can’t quite explain the thoughts lingering in my mind. Metaphors, similes, alliteration, imagery, etc. are great ways to describe how you feel. I will be posting more of my poems on this blog (things I have written from middle school to things I am currently writing). After all, this blog is all about growth and joining me on my journey from a caterpillar to a butterfly!

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The transcendent sun is shining but my mind is a rumbling storm.

The sky is an impeccable blue but my eyes sting from the deluge of rain that engulfs my sweet flesh.

The vibrant birds are singing a sweet melody but all I hear is morose silence.

All sounds lost in the glum and bitter whistling wind.

The world becomes mute;

The hums of the birds barely reaching the open roads.

Loving Yourself

People say falling in love is hard these days. Our generation is so messed up, which leave us with low expectations and trust issues. But what I’ve come to realize is that the hardest thing to fall in love with is yourself.

We are all constantly trying to mold ourselves into this pretty picture that society has created but it’s unrealistic. We are all different and beautiful in our own ways. So why try to change that? Why should we allow people to set the standard for beauty, for success, for love, etc.? Beauty is different to everyone. Success is different to everyone. And love is different to everyone. So why does society make us think we have to have the same views on every single thing?

By allowing ourselves to conform to societies views and false expectations, we allow ourselves to become so small and we let the world take control of our lives. But we should be taking control of the world. We are in control of our own destinies, morals, and values. Therefore, we should not allow society, a person, or a bad experience change that for us. We all have a purpose on this planet so life is too short to focus on the petty things. We are extraordinary beings. We are capable of too much to allow ourselves to get lost in the armpit of societies false claims. We are so powerful and we don’t even realize it sometimes.

We can feel so many different things with our minds and with our bodies. It’s both a beautiful and ugly thing. It’s beautiful in the way that we feel love and warmth, and can reminisce on our adventures and great experiences. It’s ugly in the way that we can feel all of these things and that we can lose them just as easily with the spark of a negative thought. When love is good, it’s really good. And when a love is bad, it’s really bad. It can be good when you love something so much it becomes your career or in the way that you find your true love. It can be bad in the way that when a love for your job becomes your only love and takes over your life. It can also be bad if you become too dependent on someone you love who eventually leaves you heartbroken. Even reminiscing on great experiences and adventures can turn ugly if you are in a bad place and make yourself believe you will never be as happy as you once were.

We are such vulnerable human beings and that’s okay. But ultimately we are the only ones responsible for picking ourselves back up because we are the only ones that can control the thoughts in our mind and change the negative to a positive. This is why we must love ourselves. It’s the most important part of our existence. If we don’t love ourselves, how can we expect other people to love us? It is something we hear all the time but it is true. We need to drive our emotions and feelings no matter the situation.

“Perfect” is simply just a word that someone made up. No one is perfect but we can be our own kind of perfect. By this I mean we learn to truly understand and love ourselves. If you constantly think and strive for the best then you are being as perfect as you can be. By staying true to yourself and others, creating only room for positive thoughts and people in your life, and by falling in love with yourself –you have reached your highest point of your own perfect being. If you can do all of these things then congratulations- you are learning to fall in love with yourself and the world leaves with you endless opportunities at your feet! Jump on those opportunities, allow yourself to truly live in the moment and feel them. Stop thinking what if and DO IT. You never know unless you follow your heart. Stop living in fear of your own thoughts, society, and bad experiences. Instead, create new positive thoughts, new experiences, and create the kind of society you wish to see in your mind. It will be amazing when you see how many good, new things you can attract with a positive mindset.

Falling in love with yourself may not be easy and for many will take a lot of time. I’m still on my journey from caterpillar to butterfly. But I promise that once you do fall in love with yourself, it’ll be the most magical thing to happen to your existence. Because once you fall in love with yourself, you can do anything you put your mind to. Once you fall in love with yourself, you won’t care what other people think. Once you fall in love with yourself, you can take control of the world. But most importantly once you fall in love with yourself, you can take control of your own life. Once you do that, the world is truly your oyster.

Start the trend.

Speak your mind.

Spread the positivity.

And love yourself endlessly.

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